Dawn of Desire - A letter from Dawn

Hi love, 

Last week, I was on the podcast with Sir for the first time in six months answering some questions that our Instagram followers had for me. That was actually not the plan. 

The plan was for me to rejoin THIS week, to record the episode that’s just been dropped today, to share what’s been going on with me. 

When I stepped back, we didn’t say much about why. Only that we both knew that it needed to happen for me to be with myself. 

Now, I’m ready to share. 

Over the last year, I’ve been experiencing a sexual awakening that needed that space. Because as this awakening was happening, I was also doing this podcast and helping Sir in our coaching and teaching business. 

This had me constantly rehashing my past. Going into my process and what I’d gone through. And every time we’d finish “work” I’d feel completely lost to my own body and sexuality. I was all up in my head. And needed time to get back into my body again. 

And the tidal wave of my own sexuality wasn’t having it anymore. 

This side of me felt too important. Too real. Too purposeful for me to ever let anything come between me and the way I was beginning to experience myself. 

So this is why I pulled back. To let myself fully connect to the sexual being that I am. To stay in my body, my breath, my cravings. To let the last of my fears and my resistances to my own desire fade away. 

And that was absolutely the right decision. 

Because what has continued to emerge is a deep, radiant, bold, confidence…and an absolutely unapologetic sexuality that belongs fully TO ME. 

It has felt like I’ve truly come alive in ways I didn’t even know were possible. 

None of this would have been possible without our relationship. Without Andrew’s unconditional support and leadership, and my submission to him. 

It was his leadership and unwavering devotion to seeing me live fully in whatever was true for me that gave me the safety to truly unravel.

And from that place, I could fully be myself for the first time in my entire life. 

And it turns out that who I am IS my sex. 

And to think I used to say I had a low libido. Who WAS that girl? 

A few years ago, I remember telling Sir that I wanted to be a woman who was so sexually alive that people couldn’t even look at me without seeing how much of a sexual being I was. 

Be careful what you wish for…because that has truly become the life that I’m living now. And I’m ready to share that part of me with you too. Because this is who I am. 

Everything we’ve taught over the years about D/s, about living in truth, about devotion and Eros…this is what it has led me to. A deep purposeful connection to my sex…

And a desire to be fully seen in it. 

Not just seen…watched. 

And after many months of considering this and preparing ourselves for it, we’re ready to let you see a whole new side of us. 

So, yes. We’re opening up a way for you to see inside of our sexual and kink dynamic, and for me to share this side of myself with the world. I am now on OnlyFans, both solo and with Sir, showing off and having fun. 

And yes, this is about fun for us. We’re enjoying ourselves so much. I’m feeling LIT UP not just when we’re recording (did I mention I like being seen? It turns out I REALLY like it), but it’s also lit me up in all of my life. 

I know this will be confronting to some of you. Exciting to others. That’s okay. We’re not here to convince anyone or explain ourselves, we’re simply ready to let you see the other side of our relationship…if you choose. 

Infinite Devotion isn’t becoming a “porn site”. We’ll still be here sharing our relationship and the ways that our dynamic continues to shape us. 

But for those of you who want to see what that relationship has made possible…

how much pleasure and aliveness we experience together after 16 years…

what the things we teach make possible inside the bedroom…

what it’s like to be sexually and spiritually owned AND free…

And just me showing off for my own pleasure…

I want to invite you to come see for yourself at https://dawnofdesire.net

And for the thousands of you that kept asking when we’d share our kinky side…the answer is now.

But talking about it just doesn’t excite me anymore.

I’d rather show you. 

So I’m back.

But I’m not coming back as the same woman I was. I’m coming back as the sexually alive and free woman I’ve become, and I wouldn’t trade that for anything. 

I’ll be on the podcast occasionally. But more than that, I’ll be over here doing far more “showing” than telling. 

With love, freedom, and desire, 

Dawn

To listen to the podcast episode where Sir and I go deeper into this conversation, visit https://infinitedevotion.com/podcasts/dom-sub-devotion or watch on YouTube .